Dark days

Lately it seems like my days are dark, the very same people who gave birth to me have revealed their true heart felt feelings, I never understood how someone can one day show love and respect for you but secretly hate you and compare you to their favorite children and grandchildren, I was never important to them, I see that now, God put things in your path to see how we can handle them, i truly believe he has tested me. the only thing I can say is I hope i passed his test because I tried my hardest to repair this extremely broken relationship, I have always been the black sheep, if God hadn't blessed me with my own children, I truly believe i wouldn't be loved by anyone but him. I am a good person and deserve the best of whatever i feel is best, no one is perfect, I'm sure they didn't realize i over heard them speaking about me and my precious kids but i did, maybe they did and just don't care, Whatever the case my days are dark lately and I pray they will soon be bright.